Anew

No, it doesn’t seem like yesterday at all,

Because every moment has counted since the day of your depart

No I’m no more scared to say that you’re dead,

And no, I’m still not on the verge of the overrated new start.

They ask me where were my tears and worry,

I tell them they dried in the winds of February

They ask me why I was so shameless

I said just ‘cuz it never feels painless.

For it’s been days and each day reminds me more

Of how much you were needed and wanted still.

My soul is matt dark with the deepest hole

An empty space no one can fill.

Still I’ve been trying and I’ve been trying so hard

To fit in the red, pink and blue in the vacant part.

It just won’t work anymore ma!

There’s always a fist clenching my heart.

It’s just that people say it goes with time and around.

What they don’t know is that the secret evil is here to stay.

It’s not the pain that is slowing down

It’s the memories that are fading away.